Only sort of related to today's post, but I've been meaning to share for a few days!
In my last post about Vulvodynia, I talked about how the treatment process was going to unravel. It’s been a few weeks since, and I’m a about to go in for another round of physiotheraphy and cognitive behaviour therapy tomorrow.
So far, it hasn’t been what I’ve expected. Not that I really knew what to expect, but, hey, we all create some sort of idea in my head.
I’ve been bad. I was assigned homework from last time, and... you guessed it, I didn’t really follow through. My trouble was finding time.
On the bus today, I did my worksheets. We had to do a cognitive behavioural square about our thoughts, feelings, behaviours and actions regarding a non sexual activity, a painful sexual activity, and then a painless sexual activity. The last one was the hardest because I just don’t. I don’t know what that would even mean. I also did my other worksheet, but the example they did up in the book pretty much hit the nail on that one.
As to physio. I failed. I tried to consciously think of the things that she told me to do. But I still don’t know where my pelvic floor muscle is.... I can’t seem to separate it from my butt muscle and my stomach muscle (I’m not a doctor, or anyone who knows the names on the muscles, that’s just they way they are too me)
And I completely failed at doing any mindfulness. I just didn’t have the time. That’s my excuse and I’m sticking to it! It is hard to take 10 minutes to myself to do nothing--- not when I have so much going on, and sometimes, I just want to ‘relax’ my way.
I guess I could practice it right now on the bus... failed.
..... I have been able to wear jeans more often in better news!